August 25, 2015

I was always so scared of menopause. I thought it was going to be the end. “Peri-menopause” is where I am in the process.

My grandma Anne called it “The changes” and I have really come to love that term.

Changes are occurring, hot flashes and changes in my period. But I have noticed that there are other things changing also. Changes for the good and I don’t feel scared anymore, I am embracing the changes.

With The Changes, I find that I no longer get cramps with my menstrual cycle. I also have had a huge reduction of migraines!

but most importantly-

I no longer feel the need to prove anything to anyone.

I no longer care what you think of me.

I still battle my own inner thoughts though. I thought by the time I was 48 years old I would have self-love and total self-acceptance…but I don’t and so now I will blog to share my process.

I was at a wedding two weeks talking to a girlfriend from childhood and a newer friend. All of our ages within a 10 year span of each other. one friend was complaining about how fat she looked. The other friend was complaining about the wrinkles on her face. All I saw standing before me was 2 beautiful women.I joined the conversation by saying that I hoped by the time I got to this age I would stop with the self-hate and negative self talk.

I am sick of hating myself and being so hard on me.

The truth is that I would never talk to anyone the way I talk to myself.